all about feelings!! (-_-)

you know that feeling when you have a funny little ache in your chest and you wonder if it's your heart breaking? And when you feel     you should be looking your self inside your room and crying your broken heart out,instead of pasting a fake,plastic smile on your face to everybody???

that' a pretty bad feeling right???

i hate the feeling when you know you're going to cry.

your lips quiver,your heart pounds,your eye sting,your face clenches up,

and than your the tear start fall.

You can't stop them no metter how hard you try.

And it's not little tear that slide down your cheeks

it's big tear that make your eye red and puffy.

your face tear-stained and your body heave.

You can't stop the tears

And as youe lie at your bed alone.

you think of what could you have possibly done to stop the pain.

Stop the suffering,stop this...stop what you're going through.

BUT there noting can you do.....

NOTHING everyone can say..

it's the kind of tear and pain that you need to CRIED OUT

not TALKED OUT.

And you know that you're hurting people you LOVE

but you can't HELP IT.

AND SOMETIME YOU JUST DONT CARE!!

I hate feeling weak..!!

i hate knowing that someone can say something to me

and i'll so hurt!!

BUT

sometime i wish my poker face wasn't so good

sometiem i wish they would see how much i was hurting and back off!!

I HATE FEELING WEAK!

but i wish you all knew..

how deep your word go.

i not even upset,angy or hurt anymore

i'm just tired!!

i'm tired to putting an effort than i receive.

i'm tired holding on for nothing!!

i'm tired to believing all your lies!!

i'm tired of  you proving me wrong everytime!!!

i'm tired of getting  my hopes up and being dispointed again!!!

p/s : thanksalottogoogle:)